Dear Best Friend

Hey. 

How long have I known you? I can't remember the first time I spoke to you, but I do know we've come a long way. We started by not wanting to see each other's face, and look where we are. Every morning of last year I woke up thinking today is going to be a better day because I knew I would see you in school.  You were my morning sunshine, I'm not even kidding. Every night that I cried myself to sleep I told myself, tomorrow is going to be a better day because she will make you laugh. To all the times I've cried to you, to all the times I've asked you why my life was like this, to all the times I've given upon myself, you stayed. You stayed when everyone else left. You're still there. So many years and I keep doing the same mistakes, but not a single time you've gotten mad at me. Not a single time you've judged me. You've always told me other people's scenarios which were more terrible than mine, just to make me feel better. You gave me hope to live tomorrow. If not for you I would've been long gone from this world. Thanks for sharing my happiness and tears like it was yours. And now that you seem physically far away, I miss you. I miss you in every part of my day. I miss pulling your hair during chemistry class and pretending like it's my mustache. I miss the most random things we used to talk about in school. You are the only person who I can be myself with, and you would never ever find me annoying. I cannot thank god enough for giving such a messed up person like me, an amazing and understanding soulmate. Dear best friend, this is to tell you, no guy can ever treat me like the way you do. No guy can ever understand me like the way you do. And no guy can ever take the place of you. 

I love you.